Devoted

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Devoted Lyrics

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I’m losing
my whole life
In your purpose and
for your heart’s desire
I’m running
with blinded eyes
faith as my guide
let your love take flight

Refrain:
For you, all was put aside
all for you and I
Father it’s you I love

Chorus:
I’m devoted to you
sacred love, my truth
I’m devoted to you
all in all I worship you
I worship you my Lord

Bridge:
Precious God
Into your arms
Without blame I come
Your blood has saved us all

For you all is put aside.
Was doing my assignment/slacking when my itunes played this song.
The catchy tune caught my attention but its more than just the catchy tune.
Questions struck head as i decided to take some time to close my eyes and meditate on the lyrics…

What’s the purpose im living for?
What’s my heart’s desire?
Am i letting faith to guide me?
Am i “putting all aside” for God?
Am i DEVOTED to God?

Well i guess God is reminding me that there’s a friend/father/God up there in the midst of my assignments….
And i guess only i shall know the answers to the questions =D No harm asking urself those question =D
Alright back to assignments!! Night classes ending this week!!! But well project one is reaching its peak!!! As in the workload is literall reaching the peak!! Haha how i wish print shops and paper shops are like 7 elevens. How i wish ideas can generate at the speed of light. How i wish humans can survive without sleeping for daysss(and i wish human wont grow pimples when lack of sleep!!). wishwishwish wake up shipeng!

konbanwa!

Heehee finally after 2 months(since Nov 8, ignore the last post) decided to come back to this poor little page where contains my nonsense for the past 3 years.

Just remembered i have yet to summarize year 2009 and record down my 2010 resolution like i usually do. Am quite amazed after i typed “past 3 years” lol. Amazing la rememebr the first time i started a blog was like 2 months after i’m committed to church? When i look back i always see how have my faith level grown as i walk with God each day. If only i can compare how i am before coming to know God or if only i have private blog which contain my down times and compare it with “spiritual” times. Haha its like black background with red words. Contrasting effect. What i mean is that its only when i faced down times then i will realised how important is God to me. God is like the red words on the black background. In the darkest moments he was there to give us hope and assurance. And he will be obvious to those who seek him! just like the red words on a black background.

Yup so many a times that was how i felt in 2009. I started off in a brand new white paper. So many times i scribbled myself black! But God being God so many times erase the black ink/marks off so mercifully. 2009 is the year i really step into the combat zone. Combat zone where i fight spiritual and physical battle. Like battling the stupid project to earn my precious sleepsss. Battles like needing to be more independent. Battles in making right decisions. Battles from the devil’s trails and temptations… Many more. To think back i think i lost all the battles hahaha. However, since entering poly, the first major thing i learnt about God in my poly life is that God is forever faithful and merciful to his people. I have shared this testimonial many times. No matter how unfaithful i have been to God. When i decided to go back to God he will nvr fail and always touch me through his words and his people!

2009 :

2009 is the year where i experienced more than ever before. I learnt so much from these experiences. 2009 i experience so much more Joy in serving God. I learnt how bad is it to serve God with an empty heart. I also learnt how joyful it is to serve Gof joyfully! Thankful for all the downs and ups God has brought me through till today here typing about him. Experience the hardwork of being a shepherd and leader! Really wonder how can anyone compare earthly shepherd with CHIEF shepherd la. Haha We are like 1/1000000000000 of an atom if we are compared to God. 2009 have been a joyful yet tough journey. Isnt a year i wanted it to be. I remember my spiritual walk with God when into a deep deep pit when i entered poly haha. Call me lousy i dun care. What i know is that God has brought me out. And again in btween i feel so many times. Yet again God stretched out his hands to me! Im grateful. Really grateful! 2009 i truely understand how real is God to me. Thank you God ^^. A year with so many mistakes…. Yet so many memorable experiences. This is enough to show God has nvr gave up on me. Okay this section on 2009 is getting no where lats move on to 2010. Wait. Last but not least 2009 gotta thank God for my awesome brothers, sisters and friends! My lifegroup ppl my sheep, alvin, donavan they have been those which have been keeping guiding me closer to God in 2009 Thank God for Them.

2010:

A year which i set to learn from my past mistakes.

A year which gonna be the level 2 of combat zone after last year. Gotta be momre prepared for this lvl 2!

A year which i wont short change what God has entruted me to do. Like roles as a shepherd or as a learder…

A year which im gonna turn 19 (with that disgustingly small boy look)

A year where my results will be better than sem 1.1 which i got 2.94 gpa :S

A year where im gonna shine for God through my results and my life!

Most of this can only be done by loving and having faith in God. Which means obeying him and etc….

So lastly. gonna keep my life on track with God everyday of 2010! God help me in these!

Okay i guess for more than 50% of what i wrote above dun make any sense. Cuz i only had 3 hrs of sleep since 6am till now! Haha. Having the sleep depriving project 1 and japanese(which im lost!) for my school currently. Well for my sake for God’s sake i gonna do it to the best i can! Shall end off here and hopefully i can blog more in future.

I really think i should explore photography. Camera anyone? Olympus pen isn’t that bad for my bday :D HAHA kidding. Enjoy the coolio advert :D

Delibrate Effort

Deuteronomy 15

The Year for Canceling Debts

¹ At the end of every seven years you must cancel debts. ² This is how it is to be done: Every creditor shall cancel the loan he has made to his fellow Israelite. He shall not require payment from his fellow Israelite or brother, because the LORD’s time for canceling debts has been proclaimed. ³ You may require payment from a foreigner, but you must cancel any debt your brother owes you. ⁴ However, there should be no poor among you, for in the land the LORD your God is giving you to possess as your inheritance, he will richly bless you, ⁵ if only you fully obey the LORD your God and are careful to follow all these commands I am giving you today. ⁶ For the LORD your God will bless you as he has promised, and you will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. You will rule over many nations but none will rule over you.

⁷ If there is a poor man among your brothers in any of the towns of the land that the LORD your God is giving you, do not be hardhearted or tightfisted toward your poor brother. ⁸ Rather be openhanded and freely lend him whatever he needs. ⁹ Be careful not to harbor this wicked thought: “The seventh year, the year for canceling debts, is near,” so that you do not show ill will toward your needy brother and give him nothing. He may then appeal to the LORD against you, and you will be found guilty of sin. ¹⁰ Give generously to him and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the LORD your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to. ¹¹ There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land.

Freeing Servants

¹² If a fellow Hebrew, a man or a woman, sells himself to you and serves you six years, in the seventh year you must let him go free. ¹³ And when you release him, do not send him away empty-handed. ¹⁴ Supply him liberally from your flock, your threshing floor and your winepress. Give to him as the LORD your God has blessed you. ¹⁵ Remember that you were slaves in Egypt and the LORD your God redeemed you. That is why I give you this command today.

¹⁶ But if your servant says to you, “I do not want to leave you,” because he loves you and your family and is well off with you, ¹⁷ then take an awl and push it through his ear lobe into the door, and he will become your servant for life. Do the same for your maidservant.

¹⁸ Do not consider it a hardship to set your servant free, because his service to you these six years has been worth twice as much as that of a hired hand. And the LORD your God will bless you in everything you do.

The Firstborn Animals

¹⁹ Set apart for the LORD your God every firstborn male of your herds and flocks. Do not put the firstborn of your oxen to work, and do not shear the firstborn of your sheep. ²⁰ Each year you and your family are to eat them in the presence of the LORD your God at the place he will choose. ²¹ If an animal has a defect, is lame or blind, or has any serious flaw, you must not sacrifice it to the LORD your God. ²² You are to eat it in your own towns. Both the ceremonially unclean and the clean may eat it, as if it were gazelle or deer. ²³ But you must not eat the blood; pour it out on the ground like water.

V1-11 reminded me of our money is God’s Money. This phrase again reminds me of managing our money well for God. Know where to spend the money wisely. Managing our money well is a form of honouring God. Cause in times of needs the money can used to expand God’s kingdom. And in my case more often i try to manage my money well cause my parents sort of object me from going out often cause they scared i spend too much money. If i cant go out, i cant serve God and all!!! So, sometimes i will try my best to use as little as possible to prove see i go out also nvr spend money in fact i spend lesser. This make them to have lesser reason to object me :D This leads to me being delibrate in serving God and Loving God. I think in whatever we do “for” God can only be for God if we do it sincerely and delibrately. Knowing the purpose of doing what we doing. Somethings i cant stand about people is they wanna do something(not something woooha but just some small little things) but they just dun wanna put in delibrate effort to make sure that thing happen!!! Wanna wake up on time? Make sure you buy alarm Clcoks! Wanna grow in God? Be commited and start reading the word. Somethings HAVE to be done in everything said. The few verses above, God can command them all these. They can believe what God said but when the time come they say aiya i forget nvm la how? God will curse them la. Haha. So when the time come they will put in delibrate effort to prepare things to send of their servant and all yup.

2010 i wanna put in more DELIBRATE EFFORT i everything i do. Im accountable to nicholas my sheep, to whoever reads this post and to God! Pray that this resolution will last through out the year and all my life! Everyone who knows me feel free to correct me if im straying of the track :D yups.

God is everything.

Undying Love. Never Ending Hope.

Watch the video before u start reading this post.
Many people may have watch this video before or they may be very famous by the time i watched and knew about them.
But God has been reminding me again and again how much he love me and how much i shld love the people under my care.
I maybe facing a little rough patch here and there plus my not very good timetable, God is reminding he is my father. He has brought me passed many marathons this is just another one! If a worldly father can do so much as shown in the video (lets not even talk bout a disabled child), how much can God do for us? Lets picture the love the father shown to the son in the video is just 50% of God’s love for us. Imagine 100%? I cant imagine. Too much to imgine ^^! Amazing Fatherly love.
As i watch this video i was asking wats my love rating for my sheep and ppl around me? 1-10. Before i can rate. I rmb actually love and hope comes tgt! See the father love his child and he hope to give his child the best. Even at 66 he run carrying his child going for uncountable marathons and triathlons. He can even confidently say “he is happier then 95% of the people(or children) in the world”. His love and hope in his son had help the son to graduate with a degree and all.
Hope certainly bring people far! One thing i wanna take from the video and my experiences for the past few weeks is that. I really wanna love my sheep more. Goin the extra extra mile for them. Believing in them seeing wat they may be like in future and not wat they are currently. Seeing wat i maybe like in future and not what i am in currently. Seeing the future means giving effort to reach it! The past few weeks teaching… Gonna meditate it day and night haha. I wanna experience the joy of impacting ppl’s life. The joy of changing someone’s life. The joy of my life transformation. I need God more to lead me and to guide me. I need to stay faithful to God as well. Yup thats bout it. Sometimes i think self-reflection rocks!!!
Lastly, im embarking on a timetable of 9am-6pm mon-fri worse i can ever have! Haha. Please pray for me that God will guide me through and im able to manage my live well.